2020 New Year's Resolutions Status Check-in

1. Be good with Jonathan
2. Be good with health
3. Be good with money
4. Be good with things that make me beautiful

January Status
1. Jonathan and I are pretty good.
2. Health and I are pretty good.
3. Money is not great, but better than nothing
4. Not really beautiful, but grateful for Jonathan and health and money

February Status
1. Jonathan and I are pretty good
2. Health and I are alright. Not great.
3. Money is not great, but better than nothing
4. Just let me do well on the bar exam for now.

March Status
1. Jonathan and I are okay
2. Health and I are not great.
3. Money is not great, but better than nothing.
4. Was connecting with lots of old friends.

April Status
1. Jonathan and I are okay. We love each other. It is okay.
2. Health is hell.
3. Money is not great. Need a new job.
4. Have been getting slimmer.

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